Deeply in Love

I'm just amazed how much love our hearts can pour no matter how much we've hurt trying to find it and keep it. I'm even more amazed as to how I have kept my sanity despite the number of times love has failed me. Perhaps it's the optimistic side of me that keeps me going and going after it after I have suffered from love. And then, I remembered this song. It reminded me that no matter how much pain our earthly lives will experience, there is only one love that will redeem and captivate us. And if so happens that you find this love, I'm sure you will never experience pain again... that is the Love of our savior Jesus Christ.

Deeply in Love

Hillsong

In my life You've heard me say I love you
How do I show you it's true

Hear my heart, it longs for more of you
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you, grows stronger each new day.
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

Jesus, you've stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you
  

Futurama

After all that has happened to me in the past few months, I can say that I have been into the "future" mode currently. I have been immersed into the NOW that I forgot what I want to do in the future and to make use of NOW I made a list of things what I want to do in the near and not-so-near future.
   First, I have decided to seriously consider my application for migration to a foreign land. My dad was bugging me about this since time immemorial and I simply pushed myself to follow what he wanted without even having the gusto to leave our country for something good. Perhaps, all I really need was a jolt from somewhere or something and electrocuted did I get. Well, I won't go into the details but I am saying that I'm over with round one and I'm on to round two. Well, guess my departure from Philippines will be faster than what I expected it to be. And I can't wait. 
   Secondly, I am taking the CFA exam this December. Finally, after years and months of trying to convince myself (or simply for the lack of monetary support) I mustered enough courage to try it out. I can say that I am enjoying studying again. And I know I'll pass. Rush level 1, can't wait to get to level 2. (*Cheshire cat smile*) hehehehe
   Lastly, I'm giving myself a break from expecting too much out of the dreaded L word. I have been into it and been dumped. I can't say I don't love that person anymore but I can say I am moving on. Wow, it is indeed a relief to say that. The pain sucks big time especially if you thought both of you will get stuck for a lifetime of "forever" but it didn't work. The optimistic me got cannibalized again. Well, charge it to experience. I am moving on. Well if the L word lands on my doorstep again, bet you I will still open the door. 
   After all that futurama stuff, all I can say ---- I can't wait for the FUTURE to become NOW. Until then, I'll wait and just work hard for it. Wish me luck, guys. 
 

Quick Note 2: On Grief.

Kübler-Ross: Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Depression. Acceptance.

I am far from acceptance. Far, far, far from it.

Rush February, I had enough of it.